Thank you all for your kind thoughts and love. I have been trying hard to concentrate on my wonderful memories of Posh, from the minute she walked into my life. It's hard at the moment because the events of the last three days have been coming into my mind and I've been questioning myself about things I should have noticed, or done sooner.i know this part of grief but I feel so guilty.
Thankfully I spent the evening yesterday with three of my cat owning mates who lifted my spirits, the wine helped too.
it's good to know that I can open up to them and you my Catsey friends without being dismissed for my deep sadness over my girl.
Just to add that Pearla and Pandora have been good girls and I think they sense a change in the home. Although I think they are sweet, they will never replace Posh in my heart, there is a hole that nothing can fill.