Serious disscussions are taking place in the house, Cleo still misses Oz in fact I think more now than at the time, its as if she has realised he has not come home
I have started to lock the cat flap when she is asleep (ie often) because I cannot bear the look of expectation on her face if the wind blows it open, the noise stirs her and she is convinced everytime that he is home.
She is not too good today - nothing specific just not too well. I am in the process of making a vets appointment for her tonight. The cyst has got quite big and not sure if she tired due to that. Or a little off colour.
But the way she is progressing not to sure if another cat is in her best interest or mine,
if I will have the time or patience to give to the new cat, or if I will resent him or her if something happens to Cleo, will I think I have pushed her out (silly I know but no one said your heart was logical). We will continue the pondering after the vets.
It is not a thing to be rushed into I must consider every option I have a lot of love to give - but my 23 years of loyalty to Cleo is my first priority as it always has been, since we met day 1 I promised then I'd take care of them and always keep them safe and I will.